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First a short note for my new readers. Sometimes I don’t post for a couple of days. Importing and post processing the photos, writing, uploading - that takes a lot of time. Sometimes I am too tired to do that late at night, or I don’t have the time or I’m on tour. That doesn’t mean anything. I will always shoot my POTD and post it. Always, that’s an absolute certainty. Don’t get to 6940 if you don’t make it a certainty.
Today was hard. I had some very unpleasant things I had to take care of, things I don’t even want to mention. Some tough problems ahead - like Titanic’s iceberg. Hope it will not sink me.
Maybe I’ll talk about it when it’s all over. I will need a lot of strength to handle this.
This morning I got an SMS from Sabina, well actually it was from yesterday night, she told me how nice it was to hang out with me and wished me good night. It is very tempting to do some fooling around with Sabina, I have to admit it. But I am not sure if it is a good thing. Firstly, I don’t feel like going back, secondly, I’d rather concentrate on my self development, and thirdly it doesn’t feel right. The only thing I am really interested in is fooling around after a rather long time of total abstinence.
Is that a good reason? Or should I say there’s nothing wrong with that, have some fun, bloke?
GTD is a blessing. It has forced me to take care of things I would have postponed for sure. And it frees my mind for other things, like composing. I am composing steadily, and it’s a good feeling. Small steps every day. Like the snail. It’s not that I come up with the greatest ideas, but I am working on it, and this is the most important thing. Inspiration is hard work. Took me a while to figure that out. Inspiration comes after all the crap has been sorted out in endless hours of frustrating work… Well actually, what I still have to learn is not to get frustrated when nothing happens, but to see it as a positive process that will eventually trigger inspiration. That’s a hard lesson to learn. At least it is for me.
Later: I went to town with Matthew and we spent a great evening together. He’s become a real friend.
When I got back at around 11:30 I got an SMS from Sabina. She came over for a beer, and then we had sex all night… Errh - felt great after a year of no sex. What the heck, life’s too short. I went to sleep after she left, that was around 5 AM. Didn’t really have the energy to post then, you understand…
